Bless Your Heart

sad, sad day

i don’t know how to write this. my good friend melissa died yesterday. she’s 30 years old. she leaves a 1 year old son, a wonderful husband, great parents, 2 sweet sisters, neices & nephews, grandparents even and countless friends. she’s been battling cancer of the spine (and more recently the brain) for the last year. i’ve written about her in my blog before. most recently about a week ago detailing her most recent trip to wake forest for an experimental chemo. she was suffering pretty terribly through this chemo and it just proved too much for her. i’m just glad she’s not in so much pain anymore. i’m going to her house this afternoon to visit with her family. this was just so sudden. i mean, of course i’ve known she was sick, but she was in treatment. she was supposed to come home and if it didn’t work, die comfortably in her bed. i just sent her another card the day before yesterday. i just left a message on her machine yesterday morning. i hadn’t gotten my messages yet. i don’t know what to do or how to act. i’ve never had a friend my age die. not a good friend. i mean, there were a couple of people in school, but i barely knew them. i wish i could have seen her again. but she’d spent the last week & 1/2 of her life in wake forest. i know she knew i loved her though. she was good like that. but we didn’t get to finish her scrapbook for her baby together. i’ll finish it for her. i hope she knows that. this is too hard. i don’t know when i’ll update again. there will be the visitation and funeral so it will probably be after that. say a prayer. love, shanny